This month has been a quite chaotic month for me. went to Indonesia for a conference which end up i suffered hives all over my body. until today, the hives still itchy n i guess i need to see the doctor for the third times and ask him to jab me. huarghhhhh..takut!!! (hahaha..serius takut).
and i've been busy attending wedding invitations from frens n kazens (yg mane ade gak yg x dpt nak gi..sori eh..) n also im busy thesising (yer murid2..perkataan baru arini ialah thesising=sedang membuat thesis..hehe). my master project at last finish n now i can continue writing my thesis. i have started writing my thesis since January but my sv keep on adding things into the project which i understand why (dan sy redha walaupun tension..hahaha) n at last my sv said, "ok arina sy nak nex week awk hntr sume chapter yg da siap pd sy".
ooo..how excited i was when i heard he said something like dat. seriously i have loose faith to continue writing my thesis. for months i've been thinking what if i have to extend for one more semester just because i need to write my thesis. it's normal but then i have my own target to finish my master before August n pursue my PhD (insyallah).
people keep on asking me, "why u keep on study? don't i have any feelings to have my own money? buy my own house and car?". yes. it makes me wondering sometimes and at d same time makes me feel guilty because when im not working i don't have fixed income like other of my friends who has worked. of course i do want to have a lot of money. n how sometimes i wish i could support my family financially but i believe i will reach at dat point by some persistence.
some of my friends even said dat i don't have a mission. "study and study. u have no vision!", he said. i just smile with a pain in my heart. but then i just love study. i'm not a bookworm but i just love learn new things. it's my passion.
and now, i'm in a dilemma wat to do after i finish my master. i want to continue my PhD but due to the things that happened to me lately, i think i need to work. huuu.. how devastating i felt.. but i belief for one thing. God will always lead me to the right and the best path :) so i keep the smile on my face. leave the rest to Allah *wink*